Control Freak
God has been working on me sooo much y'all! Lord knows, I love to be in charge. I pride myself on being the mother hen, the caretaker, the mentor, the big (little sis), the person everybody runs to for help or advice. It makes me feel needed an important, validates my suspicions that I matter to others. But Lord, Lord, Lord, these past 2 years!! So it was bad enough that I lost my grandfather just before starting graduate school and relinquished all control over my emotions and composure. Then I had to take an "Incomplete" for a class which I HATED because I have a SERIOUS problem with not getting things done on time. But thank God, I finished, and got that grade in by the next semester, and it was all good. THEN! I went home, and felt completely out of place with my family, which is the most foreign concept to me in the world. I felt replaced, discarded, unneeded, un-missed, and dismissed. It was real. Took the whole summer to accept that I was not in control ove...