Dreams for 2010

When this year started, I was doing okay
I should have know then that that would change
I had everything I thought I needed
Right where it should be
But I should have known then
My life doesn't do well with complacency

I used to worry about being a stick in the mud
Cus I don't do what others do
I always felt like others were bored
With the way I lived my life

But as long as I was content
With who I was 
Had one or two true friends
I would always be alright

The thing that got me this year, though,
Was the fact that those friends kept changing
And I had to accept
That they won't always be there
And I had no choice but to question 
Would I still be alright when that happened?

To tell the truth for awhile there I wasn't
I had to reposition everything about me
Be my own support when I wasn't used to it
Its like rebuilding a muscle that's turned to fat
You know the power was once there
But you're going back through Hell to find it again

And I had to learn all over
Lessons I thought I had mastered
And the one lesson I learned that resonates?
Comfort is fake
Cus as soon as you get there,
There's a bombshell around the corner
Waiting to knock your world on its butt
And the longer it takes for you to understand that,
The harder it hits every time.

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